“…God shows us who is for and against us before we get betrayed. If you see the slightest hint of someone showing signs that they will use a lie to stomp your light out the first chance they get…exit stage left. Not doing so will only put you in an energetically draining scenario that you may not recover from.”

“Kendrick doesn’t fit in the circle so he squared up. “Tough tit-taye”. The fact that Cole tried to place him there speaks more to his pride needing to be in the same sentence as someone whose greatness he recognizes. The fact that Kdot distanced himself speaks more to his understanding that we should be measuring ourselves against ourselves..not against who’s standing next to us.

“…today…I was reminded why Cole’s apology was necessary. I fully support his decision to apologize because for anyone that’s gone through the process of a spiritual awakening…the slightest separation from the transcendental energy you’ve fought so hard to align with...feels like sleep walking in the sunken place. ”

“After I dove into my feelings, I realized that this is how my rants always start. It’s like an energetic transfer of emotions takes place and I always end up feeling all the negatives while the people who handed me their toxicity walk off with my peace.”

“Unpopular Opinion: None of us are here for the sole purpose of saving our own soul. If we are privileged enough to obtain work wisdom..we have an obligation to share it because it may fall on the ears of someone who needs to know how to navigate a similar occupation.”

“I won’t pretend that there haven’t been days on this journey that I decided my presence here was no longer needed. But even in those moments…I was still present enough to know that taking myself out of this game only gives the players banking on my demise a win. I simply can not crown my opponents.”

“I was born to be an aunt. Some women were born possessing the patience of a million saints and live to see themselves in their carbon copied creations. Others know they have no parental instincts but still roll the dice on parenthood for one reason or another. I check none of those boxes. The idea of being a mother has never appealed to me…ever.“

“Most of this anger is coming from the fact that I don’t have a family anymore. And even though I realize my past inability to control my anger played a part in the deterioration of my relationship with my bloodline…I can’t reconcile why no one will acknowledge that I didn’t start out angry.”

“I was first introduced to the term ‘Chosen One’ by my twin a few years ago. She brought the words to my attention while telling me…and the group chat…how sorry she was for that being something I’d never be. I had no idea this term was a title people claimed outside of movies prior to her mentioning it. And to this day she refuses to explain what she meant by her statement.”

“I still embody the ability to deceive on occasion so I can’t say I don’t empathize with the Slanderous Sanderson's. Some truths I fear acknowledging because they show a version of myself that I don’t like. Maybe my family has this same fear and their solution is to scapegoat me in order to feel more likeable.”

“I’ve been doing my best to temper my reactions to their tiny triggers because that allows me to accumulate sane points for when I eventually decide to call out their insane behavior. Being this mENtaLLy stAbLE is taking a lot out of me.”

“The most consistent red flag I ignored in my past ‘delusionist’ state was a man’s inability to respect my boundaries. This is clearly a running theme in my life…but this behavior isn’t appearing out of the blue. I violate the boundaries of others on a pretty consistent basis and most times I give little to no regard for my overstep.”

“The pizza delivery position I had to rush to get so my car wouldn’t be repossessed, served as God’s humble hummus after my inability to doppelgang my previous Corporate position. It took years of me bouncing through temporary jobs until I found my current position. That outcome may have been different if I had learned how to respect a person’s status…even when their soul doesn’t feel right. Oh well my guy.”

“And they both refuse to acknowledge how my ability to successfully juggle THEIR RESPONSIBILITES…goes against everything they’ve claimed about me their entire life. No apologies, no acknowledgement that they took me through what they PURPOSEFULLY took me through. Nothing but hands out, extended in my “bipolar” direction.“

“When I remove my past transgressions from the equation, I’m an outstanding driver with 20/20 vision. Removing myself allows me to see the actions of someone else without the inconvenience of weighing in my own past shortcomings. My fear, however, is that when I wake up from my “I’m right, you’re wrong” Trunchbull trance (Matilda reference)…I’m going to see how much damage I actually caused.”

“I told her that in an effort to have her child avoid skin tone bullying..she ended up birthing a daughter who resembles the same girls who skin tone bullied her. I suggested that she begin to heal the emotions surrounding that bullying because not doing so would lead to her inadvertently taking that unhealed trauma out on her child.“

“If someone is giving to me, it’s ok for me to give back. If someone isn’t giving to me, it’s ok for me not to give. But because of the imbalance from my childhood, I was conditioned to believe that I should give too much even when I received nothing. Mirroring is now helping me navigate through this particular lesson.“

“I’ve always had a volatile relationship with words. For whatever reason, they never seem to come out in a way that’s socially acceptable. I either say the right thing at the wrong time or the wrong thing at the right time. I’ve had the long standing suspicion that I am purposely sabotaging my efforts to connect with people because I seem to be committed to making others uncomfortable.”

“So while sitting in a sea of sadness, projecting my hurt into the future of my nieces, nephews and second cousins…I realized that we’re all f*cked and there’s nothing we can do about it. So we might as well see the world how we want to see it. And the world I want to see involves complete happiness for them.”