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At this point I know that none of these connections will ever be resurrected. All hands have been shown. But the sting of being lied on isn’t going away. There is just something in me that can’t let that go. My mother knows she conveniently used my ‘disorder’ and she also knows she never took me for treatment when I was under her roof. Having her turn the family against me on the grounds of ‘mental instability’, that she felt no need to treat before my ‘call for counseling’, is infuriating. Seeing how far they’ve all gone/still go to trigger a ‘manic’ response from me…makes it that much worse. So right now, I’m trying to alchemize my anger.