“My frustration was in feeling the real time transmission of said lie…which misled the ears of a child that hasn’t fully developed her deductive reasoning skills. And this lie was told, solely for the shaping of this child’s perception of me.”

“Today, I discovered that the one thing I tried to avoid, to the detriment of my own mental health, happened despite my best efforts.”

“Lately, acceptance has been my life line. It helps me understand the fact that I understand nothing.“

“She was always the one taking the trips and calling me every other day with good news. While I experienced the exact opposite. But a few years ago, the playing field leveled out. Coincidently…this is also when her declaration of my mental instability appeared for the first time…“

“Today is the born day of my biological mother. Phrasing her title that way helps me disassociate from my natural inclination to hold her at a high esteem…so please forgive my passive aggression.”

“I have no control over how long it will take me to burn off this disrespectful pudge. I do, however, have full control over how I view my current self. And pudge aside, I’m that one.”

“God allowed me the privilege of meeting a self-actualized individual, unfazed by my compliments, to remind me that outside validation is never the goal…when you’re simply being yourself on purpose.”

“Apparently, the demons in my bloodline now think I have a boyfriend. In their minds, a man has to be the only reason for my averted attention. Years of being lied on, purposefully triggered, and ostracized never played a factor in their minds.”

“I was emotionally constipated, internally and externally. That led to a break in my psyche. And the solution that my brain came up with was self-mutilation.”

“Shame crept over my psyche with the thought of how she’ll feel about me when I have the inevitable conversation with her about my abortions.”

“…the quickest way to meet the emotionally unhinged version of me is by offending my oversized ego.”