Aloneness

But accepting their refusal to acknowledge my hurt for what it is, is causing me to walk away…for good this time. They’ll never acknowledge pain they’re purposely causing…so I don’t want the invalidation that comes with their presence anymore. And just like that…the forced group chats are no longer needed. I want to sit in this empty room, alone. Because being alone validates my sense of self love and it forces me to increase its intensity. Feeling alone just forced me to beg others for a version of love that kept me stagnant and…I don’t want that for me anymore.