Light work…
“Be careful what you ask for” is the most frustrating advice ever. Because I never like to acknowledge when what I want…isn’t going to be what I need. And right now, I want to be petty…but I need to be mature. I used to convince myself that being both was an option. Until I attracted an energy who reflects the side of me that I want to see…when I look at my soul. Which is forcing me to face my refusal to transition out of the tantrums I throw…when I feel like someone is taking my silence as a sign of submission.
I’ve known for a while that my DNA is surrounded by strands of starseed genealogy. I never felt like I belonged on this Planet. So when I was first told this…it made sense. But what I wasn’t told…is that starseeds are a magnet for spiritual warfare. And the first war we’re forced to fight…is the one within ourselves. Because we have to overcome our dark side…before our light side can serve its purpose, of raising the vibrations of those still struggling to find their own inner light. Our pain activates this ascension. But if we’re led with ego…it prevents it.
I have a naturally rebellious spirit. I pretend I want to grow out of using my pain to justify the pettiness of my pride but…I like it over here. Because becoming the cookie cutter version of what I’m told a real Chosen soul is…requires the kind of humility that I haven’t figured out how to sustain yet. But if I’m being honest…that’s the version of me that I fantasize about committing to. Having the ability to choose sides is honestly a gift. Since most people are stuck being servants to their South Node. So I feel like this new soul was sent to me…so I can stop taking the options my shadow work has given me for granted.
Love,
Choosy
