WidowsPeak

“I know I’m supposed to be irrationally reacting to the triggers from my ‘family’ but…this is just another full moon ritual. So spinning a web of words is pointless because their intention is to get me caught up. Our dynamic has been dead. But watching my bloodline’s calculated fall back is still hard…because it leaves me alone on an island. Leaving their energy behind raises my vibration though. Most of my anxiety is gone too because I don’t have to worry about when the next trigger is coming. And I love how this feels. The expectation of being who I need to be for myself is the only pressure I’m under right now, so I can’t grieve this loss like I used to. Because my pinnacle can only be reached…in their absence.”