UpperHand

“Having a love language that’s centered around toxic back and forths probably doesn’t seem normal to people who grew up around emotionally intelligent adults. But I’ve never felt right if my relationships weren’t toxically top heavy. I enjoy(ed) arguing and I honestly used to take it as a form of disrespect if my other half didn’t engage me. Using my words was how I maintained the upper hand but while I was gloating over the fact that no one could out talk me…resentment was replacing the requited love shown towards me. Everything in me needed to create chaos because that’s the kind of love I was raised around. I still get off on gifting random acts of crazy but it feels better when the overall theme is mutual respect.”