T.V.

So choosing ‘cloudedness’ seemed like the best alternative. But it didn’t work last night. I laid in my bed, watching a movie, and I felt like there was a cloak of sadness squeezing the life out of my body. I’m training myself to find an escape route whenever it gets that bad, and after a few minutes of allowing the tears to stream down my face…I turned on my ‘T.V.’ (tunnel vision). I knew the feeling I wanted to feel when I reached the end of it…so I figured out how to keep my thoughts moving in a way that propelled me in that direction. And…gratitude appeared.