Seated

When I started the group chats, it was my subconscious way of starting a healthier cycle, with the same people who I experienced a toxic cycle with for so long. In my mind, moving forward as a unit…with the intention of healing…. would make up for all the years I spent in misery. I went in peacefully and positively. Only to find out, after years of failing to accomplish my healing mission, that the same people I was begging to heal with me…were the same people purposely picking at my scabs. And if they behave that way now, they behaved that way during a childhood that I barely have any memory of. That time is never coming back. But logic argues that my compensation for so many years lost, can be the assurance that those coming behind me won’t experience the same type of ‘loss of life’.