SaviorSelf

“I’ve had issues showing my hand through my initial reaction to things. So when my little sister said “I wonder how that would’ve looked.”, in response to me expressing my belief that they’ve been trying to get me to off myself…I forced my reaction to be void of the pain that sentence induced. She was in her feelings because I gave her another “no” today and after our exchange…I had to release them. Because I realized that everyone in my immediate ‘family’ responds similarly to my refusal to be who they expect. I have years worth of group chats to validate this. But it took seeing her response…to fully come to terms with the fact that this is not my family. And it was never my responsibility to be the first in our bloodline to save them…from who they choose to be.”