HeelB!tch

My emotions have been arrogant asf lately. Because they know I’m feeling them….more than I used to. Finding my way through what’s real/imagined is harder to do, when comprehending them seems outside of my reach. So falling back from writing, everyday, is making it easier to stick beside em’. The sporadic silence I’ve been sitting in, brings me back to the understanding that my healing will take a lifetime. It’s also validating that the pressure that’s been inflicted on my psyche these past handful of years, was intentionally done…to induce stress related hallucinations. Which is the same psyop technique used on me since childhood…that led to my diagnosis. Disconnecting from that stress heals me. But the more I heal…the more I mysteriously aTTrAcT stressors.