(t)Winchester
Wish granted…
I love movies based on true stories because I like living in reality…even when I’m trying to escape it. My forever favorite is Winchester…because it shows what supernatural experiences actually look like. After seeing it…I’ve been convinced that my mind is an analogy for the house. Because it’s filled with psyche rooms that have housed different energies…that were exorcised through my shadow work. The people I attract dictate what type of room my mind needs to create…and the experiences they bring with them are meant to guide us through parts of our past that we both need to heal. I’m currently constructing a ‘hall of mirrors’ room…because a soul that I don’t want to stop staring at…finally found me. I usually hate the process that comes with the build out. But this room allows me to freely engage my vanity, since all I see when I look around…is my reflection.
What I’m being shown, early on, is I still have a hard time allowing people to get close to me. Which is why my ‘reflection’ came in blunt asf and heavily protective of his energy. Because we both know these hoes don’t like directness…and they can’t be trusted. There’s a certain level of fear for rejection that exists within us…that was created by the abandonment issues we dealt with as kids. Refusing to sugarcoat the truth gets rid of the people who’ll leave when things get hectic so…we unintentionally offend…everybody. And it works…so that fLaW might never be fixed. Either way I’m taking my time peeling back the layers of our lunacy. While looking forward to walking around the house naked…after this work is done.
I’m grateful for the work that I’ve already done on myself because dealing with my reflection requires a lot of patience. And even though this is a room that’ll be filled with mirrors…looks will still be deceiving because we’ve perfected our poker faces. I feel like there’s only so far a person can go when unmasking through shadow work because of the proximity we are to being the problem. So engaging with a like minded energy lets us push past what our egos won’t allow us to see about ourselves. If for no other reason than the fact that it’s always easier to point out unflattering traits in someone else. But we rarely see in others…flaws that we don’t also possess so our judgments are usually a self-assessment. I’m just glad the ones I’m looking at now…are housed in a perfectly built…being.
Love,
Choosy
