Traumadan

“I put myself on a fast from my dysfunction, to avoid feeling what I feel…until I’m ready to process it. But my brain is always trying to auto-correct its chaos…so I’ve been dissecting my introduction to trauma all day. And I realized that its access to my mind…was forcibly gained. Just so it could turn around and rearrange my mental, in ways that made me feel like it was the actual owner of my psychological property. Eventually, its toxicity attracted other energies to me…to build bOnDS with. Because those bonds always redirect my attention away from outgrowing it. Then, I’d become so busy creating space for that person’s trauma…that I’d ignore the fact that their sole purpose…was to finesse me out of my emotional foundation. So am I fasting or not? …Get tf out.”