PainKiller

I’ve been having urges to relapse rant in the chat. Nothing happened…I just don’t think they deserve the peace they get without my presence. The pLoT to excommunicate my ability to communicate our issues, didn’t have the Baker Act ending expected. And the pain it produced is still present. Popping the perks that come with my disorder is what I want…but that doesn’t treat the root of my discomfort. So now I sit in how it makes me feel, until I don’t feel it anymore. Because projecting that hurt into the chat…just reinforces the distance they intentionally placed between us. But addressing the addiction I have to acknowledging their absence…kills its ability to cause the side effects of withdrawal that comes with it.