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“Being the bigger person feels like all the fun has been sucked out of the room and this feeling alone is almost making me want to exit out of my calmness by entering into a 3 day text rant like I used to do. If for no other reason than to feel something. And that’s when it dawned on me that I’ve only ever had 2 options. Either go through these triggers collected…or crazy. The first option pays off in the long run but feels like torture in real time and the second gives me immediate gratification but will work against me in the future. So as ineffective as my restraint feels right now…I know it’ll ultimately be the reason that my sanity is sustained.”