Numb

It’s taken me three days to open my laptop. My two previous attempts at seeing this project to completion, both ended like this. I always start up around November and never seem to make it past January. The triggers from my bloodline sparked my need to vomit my emotions in a way that didn’t lead me to a psych ward. And those same triggers were also the reason I gave up and turned into the unproductive version of myself…out of sheer emotional exhaustion. I said before that the majority of their triggers take place around the holidays. So by the end of January, I’m emotionally spent.