InsideOut

When my mouth becomes a cotton field, and my heart feels like it’s trying to beat outside of my chest…that’s my mini me screaming that she knows what’s about to happen. That fear is her warning for me not to engage in the action she sees me about to take. Because she has been conditioned to believe that she’ll be (re)traumatized by the experience. Her trauma makes me sweat and her anxiety lets me know that she feels unsafe. When I choose to see that truth, she can then thank me for hearing her voice. Acknowledging this voice is the only way for me to heal my fear of being unheard. And acting in spite of that fear helps me show her that the story can be changed. This reinforces God’s overall lesson that everything I feel outside of me…is just a reflection of what I feel on the inside.