Focus

My BM used to tell me, in high school, that she had no clue how I had friends. Aside from the uncomfortably obvious undertones of projection…I can now see how she came to her assessment of my behavior. I’ve been an overtly undercover ‘mean girl’ for as long as I can remember. ‘Diagnosis’ aside…I’ve always known…that I always know…exactly what I’m doing. I’ve been able to water down how I view my meanness though. Because I found sovereignty in the fact that my inner demon…never appears unless provoked. But if my perspective is polluted…provocation is inevitable.