FearPressure

“Earlier today, I got some ‘familial’ news that led to the kind of chat crash out that I used to engage in…before my hEaLiNG. It’s crazy how I convinced myself I was getting better. But the minute I felt like I had too much pressure on me…my fear forced me to buckle underneath it. I tried carrying the weight of the energy first…but that gave me a migraine that I still have…9 hours later. Because what I was told…affects an innocent soul. I was privately asked not to speak on what I knew in the chat. So I said everything but that. By the time I calmed down, it was clear that I haven’t changed…at all. When I feel out of control of certain circumstances…I still resort to reckless reactions and ego orgies. And I do this…knowing I’m wrong…while doing it…with a smile.”