Cravings

“Atp, I have no desire to stay on this diet of kindness and mercy because all I’m craving is chaos. I hate the fact that the only logical option I have is to remain calm because I want to put on the show that everyone is expecting to see. Mainly because this is the first birthday party I’ve ever missed and the more I think about that, the angrier I get. Didn’t I say I’d be ok with missing it as long as she’s happy? Put your lips together babes.I’m annoyed! But I gave my word to myself that I’d do the opposite of what’s expected of me. So even though I feel the most seen when I let my twin have its way with me…this time I can’t because I know I’ll end up overeating.”