Conditioner

“I have a habit of conditioning the people I love…to think that my life revolves around them. And it does…until it doesn’t. So being asked to drive almost an hour away…to go pick my niece up from my sister’s job…after she told me she was “bored”, didn’t surprise me. Because I’ve done more for less. Lately I’ve been trying to put myself first though. Is it working? Ugh ugh. This time was easy because my sleep schedule has been off, so my eyes closed the minute I finished work and laid down. After I woke up, I thanked myself for refusing to offer me up as entertainment…when my body was telling me she needed rest to get back in alignment. Then, I proceeded to use all the energy I didn’t have yesterday…on her today.”