BayBe

“God assigned me to my ‘family’ at birth and I’m just coming around to accepting that I was either supposed to be their sacrifice…or their savior. And I say that as unhumbly as possible. Draining my energy every moon cycle is how they tried to reach their goal. So now I have to be serious about my boundaries and keep them at bay…to save myself from the temptation of letting them slip too far into my psyche. Because I’m scared…asf…of repeating past mistakes. This past cycle I almost fell for the same trigger that keeps getting me caught up because they still bait me with the love I have for their kids. But I put myself first because coming last, in most situations, means I sacrifice my own sanity.”