BasicBench

Since you can’t stop reading me…

I feel like some of my twin flame/soulmate encounters…were actually soul ties. Which makes sense after I acknowledge that those energies kept benchwarmers, who patiently waited for their opportunity…to play in my face. It almost feels like these girls get their self-esteem from being chosen to play a position…that women don’t want. Because in order to play it…you have to be willing…to be played. Atp, I can’t even fault the females because it’s the men who encourage their desperation. So now, I’m sitting with the understanding that my karmic tendencies…attracted a couple karmic connections…that came with karmic counterparts. And these energies continue finding mine because…I still haven’t changed my type.

From my vantage point, it looks like some of the men I attract…intentionally pick women who have insecurities they can play on. And I’m not an exception to this rule. Because when a woman has a certain level of insecurity…she’s more willing to go for anything…just to avoid going without male companionship. I’m fortunate to be the Temu version of that though. I align with this type of female because I’ve overlooked a lot of red flags in order to maintain certain connections. But the difference comes with my ability to walk away, before I lose all my self-respect. Most girls who meet the criteria to warm a bench, don’t have any level of self-esteem. Which is what allows them to sit on sidelines…hoping that the woman with a little more than them…will eventually walk away from the man they’re begging to be picked by.

What’s frustrating is the fact that there will never be a shortage of these basic benches. Since most of them substitute self-esteem…for male validation. And they’ll change everything about themselves…to fit the mold of a man’s preference. Even when this man’s behavior constantly reminds them, it was pointless to alter their ‘before’…because he still finds no real value in their ‘after’. But all the work that went into getting played, forms a trauma bond…that’s usually never broken. Which forces the spares to sit back and wait for any opportunity to be used. This is the type of soul tie that I pray never finds me…again. Because these souls are tied to the belief that their patience…will eventually change the game.

Love,

Choosy